Public versus Private

I am still having a hard time deciding what to write about. I read some blogs that are so intimate in theme. It's a ludicrous concern given that this blog is totally anonymous. I've shown it to only two people. I just think of things I'd like to write about, but then I'm not sure I want it "out there" even if nobody of consequence to me knows it's me. It's still ME, you know?

In the realm of health and fitness, which are my favorite things to read about on-line, talking about my experiences with exercise is easy. I love exercise and I'm not embarrassed about it. But the freaky allergen reducing diet I've been on for two years? I already wrote about the day I had nuts in the microwave. My blog has already pretty clearly indicated I'm up to no good in the kitchen. It's like I expect somebody to e-mail me and ask me why the hell I had nuts in the microwave to begin with.

Obviously, I could just write whatever random shit is in my brain. But I don't enjoy reading this kind of thing, so why would I create it? I already create that in my journal anyways. I have hardwood floors under my carpet and I didn't find out about it until this weekend. If I am writing stories about my home improvement projects, and include a picture of the carpet pulled up to show the wood, that's interesting, but not just tossed out there without context. There is a line that needs to be drawn somewhere.

I'm actually working on this in real life, too. Fine tuning what I will and will not share, where and with whom. I've been an open book about the food allergies (and the exercise), but the cost of this is beginning to aggravate me. It isn't any of anyone's business. I have grown to not care about their almost exclusively uninformed opinions, so it's just one more small step to just not offer information in the first place. But I do NEED to talk about it. And on this blog, any potential/imaginary readers can choose to read or not read at their discretion. And I in no way feel obligated to respond to people who doubt my ability to make heath care decisions. But by putting it "out there," even without any readers, I would probably still feel... heard.

Hmmm....